Crystal....... Humble yourself!!!!!!!

I'm being completely honest when I say I've written many blogs from then till now, but I've deleted every single one of them. I guess you can say my latest blogs are crumbled up and scattered around an electronic trash can somewhere (so to speak). I can't blame my lack of POSTED BLOGS to writers block....... I just haven't felt that any writing till now has been blog worthy. My entire purpose for REFLECTION DISCIPLINE SURRENDER was to document my journey in Re-igniting spiritual spark in my relationship with God, & that’s what I should be writing about. If we opened up all the crinkled papers lying around that trash can we would find……. Worldly advice, I began to write for all the wrong reasons. Let’s be honest I’m not here to change lives. After all this blog is not meant to boost my popularity or make me famous, it’s simply to document my journey. What happens after that……. is completely in God’s hands.
So what brought on this Blog worthy BLOG? Well……. It’s a long story, so let’s start where it all began. If you’ve been reading my blog from the beginning you’ll know I’ve hitten a spiritual plateau, & have been desperately seeking to take my relationship with God to the next level! Sure, I can recite John 3:16 with my eyes closed, & I can tell you all about Adam & Eve, who killed Able, & How many days Noah was on his ark, I can paint the elaborate picture of Joseph’s colorful coat, & how Moses lead the children of Israel out of Egypt, but that’s as far as my little Sunday School mind can take you. Desperate doesn’t begin to describe how badly I want to know more, more than teaching Sunday school will allow me. Through an invitation from my Best Friend, God has blessed me with the opportunity to be apart of a bible study group, that is currently studying the book of Daniel. I knew the story of Daniel & the reason he landed in the Lion’s DEN, but I had no idea how amazingly poetic the story of Daniel truly is. I’m learning so much about my personal walk with God through Daniel, Shadrach, Meshach, Abednego, & yes even King Nebuchadnezzar. I’ve had many epiphanies’ these past few weeks but none as life altering as last night. Everything I am, Everything I have is for God’s GLORY! Beth Moore points out, “If in our humble pursuit of God we find ourselves with a fleeting moments position, it’s a platform for God’s glory.” I’ve realized I live with such a worldly intent, to be the BEST……. to stand out, & hope one day that I’m on the top of a corporate ladder, a leader at church, the worlds greatest Mom & Wife, but for what if not God’s glory? I’ve always said I am who I am because this is who God has made me to be, but I can’t say I’ve always stood by that notion. Every blessing in my life I’ve always thanked God, but I don’t think that I’ve truly given him the glory. I desire to be as humble and faithful as Daniel, & stand firm to my faith as did Shadrach, Meshach, Abednego, & Daniel. So here’s to it…….

Humbled,
& giving God all the GLORY,

Crystal Saili-Fio